yes im struggling.
struggling within me.
because everything that im doing
links straight back to him.

i still vividly remember
his smile, his hugs, his voice
his kisses, his smell, his eyes...
i used to lay on his shoulder,
and enjoy that lingering scent.

the nights when we said,
being together was everything
that kiss that neither of us wish to end.
hug so tightly like there's no tmrr.
honeyed words still ringing in my mind.
all that is history today.




/ i dont wanna betray my feelings.
cause its tough going against it.